Notice on a slight format change:

Except for July 2012, these are mostly a collection of current devotional notes.

July 2012 is a re-write of old quiet times. My second child was born Nov 11, 1987 with multiple birth defects. I've been re-reading my QT notes from that time in my life, and have included them here. They cover the time before the birth and the few years immediately after the birth. They are tagged "historical." I added new insights and labeled them: ((TODAY, dd mmm yy)).

Friday, October 31, 2025

QT 10/31/2025 Gen30:1–11, Who are we really wresting with?

Genesis 30:1–11 (ESV) —

1 When Rachel saw that she bore Jacob no children, she envied her sister. She said to Jacob, “Give me children, or I shall die!” 2 Jacob’s anger was kindled against Rachel, and he said, “Am I in the place of God, who has withheld from you the fruit of the womb?” 3 Then she said, “Here is my servant Bilhah; go in to her, so that she may give birth on my behalf, that even I may have children through her.” 4 So she gave him her servant Bilhah as a wife, and Jacob went in to her. 5 And Bilhah conceived and bore Jacob a son. 6 Then Rachel said, “God has judged me, and has also heard my voice and given me a son.” Therefore she called his name Dan. 7 Rachel’s servant Bilhah conceived again and bore Jacob a second son. 8 Then Rachel said, “With mighty wrestlings I have wrestled with my sister and have prevailed.” So she called his name Naphtali.

9 When Leah saw that she had ceased bearing children, she took her servant Zilpah and gave her to Jacob as a wife. 10 Then Leah’s servant Zilpah bore Jacob a son. 11 And Leah said, “Good fortune has come!” so she called his name Gad.

 

NOTE: So starts the great baby race, which Leah wins 8 to 4. Leah produces Judah and Levi, important figures in the Jewish nation. Rachel produces Joseph and Benjamin (tribe of the first king). Almost all of the tribes will produce at least one leader during the period of the judges. It is sad to see the dysfunction in the family as each wife fights for approval and love of Jacob. It is not unexpected given the example of favoritism that Jacob learned from his own mother and father. Yet even in this mess and relational sin, God is working. He is building a nation out of a mess of a family (literally they would try to kill a sibling). And he is teaching individuals. We don't know all that God is doing individually. The names of Leah's children suggest more of spiritual progress, while the names Rachel uses, suggests a competition.

 

What do we learn? Are we wrestling with men (mankind) as Rachel suggests, or are we wrestling with God. I would suggest, given where the story is heading, is that life is really wrestling with God, not other people. And until we surrender to his will, life will be painful.

 

PONDER:

  1. Am I wrestling with men?
  2. Or am I wrestling with God and learning to surrender my will to his?

 

PRAYER: Father, I learned some time ago that I am wrestling with you. It is my selfish will versus your will. Most of the time, I am surrendering to your will. But my flesh continues to win a battle or two quite often. Give me strength to see what I am really doing, and to surrender to your will for my life.

Thursday, October 30, 2025

QT 10/30/2025 Gen 29:31–35, Who do I look unto for what matters most?

Genesis 29:31–35 (ESV) —

31 When the Lord saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren. 32 And Leah conceived and bore a son, and she called his name Reuben, for she said, “Because the Lord has looked upon my affliction; for now my husband will love me.” 33 She conceived again and bore a son, and said, “Because the Lord has heard that I am hated, he has given me this son also.” And she called his name Simeon. 34 Again she conceived and bore a son, and said, “Now this time my husband will be attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.” Therefore his name was called Levi. 35 And she conceived again and bore a son, and said, “This time I will praise the Lord.” Therefore she called his name Judah. Then she ceased bearing.

 

NOTE: I am guessing that this is over a period of 4-5 years. Theoretically, it could be as short a 3 years. Leah names the children in 3 of 4 cases with God in view, "Because the Lord …" (twice) and "This time I will praise the Lord." In many ways Leah was right for the wrong reasons. She went to God for her needs when her husband would not provide them. Unfortunately, she always saw the love of her husband as her greatest need.

 

We are also like that, looking to people or things to provide that which we yearn for the most. When in reality, it should be God we go to and yearn for the most. We need to make God our first thought of the day (QT/devotional), and our last thought of the day (bible reading program at night).

 

PONDER:

  1. What is the first thing I do every day (after I have readied myself physically)?
  2. What is the last thing I do before I fall asleep each night?

 

PRAYER: Father, I have found putting you first and at the end has made a huge difference in my life. Help me to stay consistent, especially at night where sometimes tiredness precludes me from reading the scriptures.

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

QT 10/29/2025 Gen 29:15–30, Cleverness is fool's gold for the Christian

Genesis 29:15–30 (ESV) —

15 Then Laban said to Jacob, “Because you are my kinsman, should you therefore serve me for nothing? Tell me, what shall your wages be?” 16 Now Laban had two daughters. The name of the older was Leah, and the name of the younger was Rachel. 17 Leah’s eyes were weak, but Rachel was beautiful in form and appearance. 18 Jacob loved Rachel. And he said, “I will serve you seven years for your younger daughter Rachel.” 19 Laban said, “It is better that I give her to you than that I should give her to any other man; stay with me.” 20 So Jacob served seven years for Rachel, and they seemed to him but a few days because of the love he had for her.

21 Then Jacob said to Laban, “Give me my wife that I may go in to her, for my time is completed.” 22 So Laban gathered together all the people of the place and made a feast. 23 But in the evening he took his daughter Leah and brought her to Jacob, and he went in to her. 24 (Laban gave his female servant Zilpah to his daughter Leah to be her servant.) 25 And in the morning, behold, it was Leah! And Jacob said to Laban, “What is this you have done to me? Did I not serve with you for Rachel? Why then have you deceived me?” 26 Laban said, “It is not so done in our country, to give the younger before the firstborn. 27 Complete the week of this one, and we will give you the other also in return for serving me another seven years.” 28 Jacob did so, and completed her week. Then Laban gave him his daughter Rachel to be his wife. 29 (Laban gave his female servant Bilhah to his daughter Rachel to be her servant.) 30 So Jacob went in to Rachel also, and he loved Rachel more than Leah, and served Laban for another seven years.

 

NOTE: I imagine that Laban knew exactly what he was doing. He had seven years to find a husband for Leah, and when that did not work out, he made the switch. I also think that there is no such rule about giving the younger before the older. And then to add another 7 years out of work from Jacob is pretty deceitful. Jacob only had to wait another week, but he (probably out of love) agreed to another 7 years of servitude. After these 14 years, he will then start working on his own "house," and Laban will change the terms of the deal continually. Still, whatever Laban does, God reverses. It will seem to Jacob that he is being clever, but somehow, he will finally realize that it is God who has blessed him, not his own cleverness.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I see my success as the result of my cleverness? As a believer in Jesus Christ, I must give God the thankfulness and praise of all I have.
  2. Some people do get rich out of cleverness on their part, but as a believer in God, it will all collapse in the end if we do not recognize the creator.

 

PRAYER: Father, for years, I have thought of myself as clever. But is clear as I look back, I would be a mess without you hand guiding me. Forgive me for my pride, help me to live in such a way as to bring you praise and honor for all that you have done in my life.

Tuesday, October 28, 2025

QT 10/28/2025 Gen 29:1–14, Doing it in your own effort, or trusting God to do something

Genesis 29:1–14 (ESV) —

1 Then Jacob went on his journey and came to the land of the people of the east. 2 As he looked, he saw a well in the field, and behold, three flocks of sheep lying beside it, for out of that well the flocks were watered. The stone on the well’s mouth was large, 3 and when all the flocks were gathered there, the shepherds would roll the stone from the mouth of the well and water the sheep, and put the stone back in its place over the mouth of the well.

4 Jacob said to them, “My brothers, where do you come from?” They said, “We are from Haran.” 5 He said to them, “Do you know Laban the son of Nahor?” They said, “We know him.” 6 He said to them, “Is it well with him?” They said, “It is well; and see, Rachel his daughter is coming with the sheep!” 7 He said, “Behold, it is still high day; it is not time for the livestock to be gathered together. Water the sheep and go, pasture them.” 8 But they said, “We cannot until all the flocks are gathered together and the stone is rolled from the mouth of the well; then we water the sheep.”

9 While he was still speaking with them, Rachel came with her father’s sheep, for she was a shepherdess. 10 Now as soon as Jacob saw Rachel the daughter of Laban his mother’s brother, and the sheep of Laban his mother’s brother, Jacob came near and rolled the stone from the well’s mouth and watered the flock of Laban his mother’s brother. 11 Then Jacob kissed Rachel and wept aloud. 12 And Jacob told Rachel that he was her father’s kinsman, and that he was Rebekah’s son, and she ran and told her father.

13 As soon as Laban heard the news about Jacob, his sister’s son, he ran to meet him and embraced him and kissed him and brought him to his house. Jacob told Laban all these things, 14 and Laban said to him, “Surely you are my bone and my flesh!” And he stayed with him a month.

 

NOTE: I guess Haran was a great place to find a wife. All kidding aside, the story is very similar to the story of Abraham's servant's effort to find a wife for Isaac. There are a number of differences which might be important. For one, Jacob did not pray as the servant did prior. Jacob did make a vow some days earlier, but I'm not sure that even qualifies since it was all about what Jacob wanted out of life. In the earlier story, the servant waited why Rebekah worked to water his animals, here Jacob waters Rachel's animals. Here, Jacob does all the talking and we do not hear Rachel say anything. In both cases, the girls run to tell their family. Here, Jacob stays a month, whereas the servant did not dally. Finally, Laban runs to meet the visitor in both cases, and whereas Laban was only one voice among many (Bethuel, Rebekah's mother, and Rebekah), here he is the only person making decisions.

 

What do we learn from the differences? Some might disagree, but Isaac served Rachel because he thought she was beautiful and wanted to make a good impression. He probably already saw her as potentially his wife. Rebekah was also beautiful, but the servant waited upon God before acting. So far, Isaac is operating entirely on human effort, whereas the servant was trusting God to work. I think this is the theme, doing things in our own effort versus waiting upon and trusting God.

 

PONDER:

  1. Where do I do things in my own effort and where do I wait upon God?
  2. In this last third of my life, what are the things that I want to accomplish? How am I trusting God in those things?

 

PRAYER: Father, continue to lead an guide me. I have been raising babies and toddlers for the last 18 of 24 months. It was not in my retirement plan, but I am grateful for these children and once again, learning how much you care for little ones. There will come a day where I will miss this job, help me to enjoy each day that you give. And prepare me for the next assignment that you have for me.


Monday, October 27, 2025

QT 10/27/2025 Gen 28:10-22, The deceit of trying to make bargains with God

Genesis 28:10–22 (ESV) —

10 Jacob left Beersheba and went toward Haran. 11 And he came to a certain place and stayed there that night, because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones of the place, he put it under his head and lay down in that place to sleep. 12 And he dreamed, and behold, there was a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven. And behold, the angels of God were ascending and descending on it! 13 And behold, the Lord stood above it and said, “I am the Lord, the God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac. The land on which you lie I will give to you and to your offspring. 14 Your offspring shall be like the dust of the earth, and you shall spread abroad to the west and to the east and to the north and to the south, and in you and your offspring shall all the families of the earth be blessed. 15 Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land. For I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” 16 Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it.” 17 And he was afraid and said, “How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven.”

18 So early in the morning Jacob took the stone that he had put under his head and set it up for a pillar and poured oil on the top of it. 19 He called the name of that place Bethel, but the name of the city was Luz at the first. 20 Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat and clothing to wear, 21 so that I come again to my father’s house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God, 22 and this stone, which I have set up for a pillar, shall be God’s house. And of all that you give me I will give a full tenth to you.”

 

NOTE: My problem with this passage is Jacob's response. He makes a conditional vow to God. He doesn’t commit himself to God as God commits himself unconditionally to Jacob. He makes demands of God before he is willing to call God his Lord. This is quite a contrast from what he will say 20 years later as he flees the land (Gen 32:9-12,24-30). Then, there will be no bargaining just repentance and a plea to God to be his Lord. But for now, he is bargaining with God.

 

Most people do this, we bargain with God. The weird thing about bargaining with God, is that when life is good, we forget God or at least we only just go through the motions. But when life is hard, we come running to God, pleading for his rescue. That is why the atheist argument, "how can God exist will all the disasters and pain," is incorrect. If God made life wonderful (which he did, but we rebelled in the garden), no one would serve God, we would be too absorbed with ourselves.

 

When are we going to stop bargaining with God and just submit to his Lordship over every aspect of our life? When will we actually get serious about our relationship with God -- that it demands our all.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I bargain with God?
  2. Have I really given all things up for his sake?

 

PRAYER: Father, protect us from our own foolishness. We are so dull and slow-witted, thinking that we can outwit you or trap you with your words. We need repentance and open eyes to see your majesty, awesomeness, holiness, mercy and grace.

Friday, October 24, 2025

QT 10/24/2025 Gen 28:1–9, Pain in family relationships

Genesis 28:1–9 (ESV) —

1 Then Isaac called Jacob and blessed him and directed him, “You must not take a wife from the Canaanite women. 2 Arise, go to Paddan-aram to the house of Bethuel your mother’s father, and take as your wife from there one of the daughters of Laban your mother’s brother. 3 God Almighty bless you and make you fruitful and multiply you, that you may become a company of peoples. 4 May he give the blessing of Abraham to you and to your offspring with you, that you may take possession of the land of your sojournings that God gave to Abraham!” 5 Thus Isaac sent Jacob away. And he went to Paddan-aram, to Laban, the son of Bethuel the Aramean, the brother of Rebekah, Jacob’s and Esau’s mother.

6 Now Esau saw that Isaac had blessed Jacob and sent him away to Paddan-aram to take a wife from there, and that as he blessed him he directed him, “You must not take a wife from the Canaanite women,” 7 and that Jacob had obeyed his father and his mother and gone to Paddan-aram. 8 So when Esau saw that the Canaanite women did not please Isaac his father, 9 Esau went to Ishmael and took as his wife, besides the wives he had, Mahalath the daughter of Ishmael, Abraham’s son, the sister of Nebaioth.

 

NOTE: You can feel the pain in the relationships in the family. Only now does Esau recognize his fault in choosing to marry a Canaanite woman. In fact, he married two. His choice to marry a third time and into Ishmael's family is not much better. He is looking for acceptance from his father. The good news for Esau is that for the next twenty years, he will get to spend time with his father (and mother) alone. I think the relationship heals during that time, although Jacob is unaware, because when the meet again, they will meet in an embrace.

 

There is pain enough in life without have to continue in relational pain. If there is a family member you are estranged from, it is worth it, to try again to restore the relationship. Recently, I tried to restore a relationship with one of my brothers (I have three, one died many years ago). I also have two sisters as well. None of us are very close. We live far away. I have reached out at times with some success. We can't force a positive response, we can only do what is right. It is then between them and God.

 

PONDER:

  1. Is there a family relationship you need to restore?
  2. What can I do to bring healing in my family?

 

PRAYER: Father, give us wisdom to bring healing to our extended families. It may not change overnight, but every small step forward is actually huge.

Thursday, October 23, 2025

QT 10/23/2025 Gen 27:41–46, What is prudent and required

Genesis 27:41–46 (ESV) —

41 Now Esau hated Jacob because of the blessing with which his father had blessed him, and Esau said to himself, “The days of mourning for my father are approaching; then I will kill my brother Jacob.” 42 But the words of Esau her older son were told to Rebekah. So she sent and called Jacob her younger son and said to him, “Behold, your brother Esau comforts himself about you by planning to kill you. 43 Now therefore, my son, obey my voice. Arise, flee to Laban my brother in Haran 44 and stay with him a while, until your brother’s fury turns away— 45 until your brother’s anger turns away from you, and he forgets what you have done to him. Then I will send and bring you from there. Why should I be bereft of you both in one day?”

46 Then Rebekah said to Isaac, “I loathe my life because of the Hittite women. If Jacob marries one of the Hittite women like these, one of the women of the land, what good will my life be to me?”

 

NOTE: Again, we see humans scheming instead of trusting God. Esau's plan to kill Jacob after his father dies is based on pretty faulty assumptions since Isaac lives another 20-plus years. I'm not sure how old he is at this point, maybe 100-140, but he lives until he is 180 years old.

 

And Rebekah shares her plan with Jacob and then goes to Isaac complaining in such a way that Isaac would send him away. Actually, her concern is valid, but it seems it could have been shared differently. It comes across as whining, in such a way as to force Isaac's hand.

 

But the hand of God is allowing and using these situations for good. Jacob will have a difficult life being used and abused by his uncle. Deals will be circumvented and reinterpreted (the account says 10-plus times), such that Jacob will get a Masters-level course on deception and how it feels to be on the receiving end.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I need to give up on scheming and just start trusting?
  2. How can I tell when an action is required and prudent? How do I know when I have gone beyond?

 

PRAYER: Father, give me wisdom to know when an action is just and good. Too often I go beyond prudent. Others exhibit the opposite problem and don't do anything, not because they trust God but because they are lazy. I pray for you wisdom and teaching to penetrate our minds.

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

QT 10/21/2025 Gen 27:11-29, Real blessing comes from God alone

Genesis 27:11–29 (ESV) —

11 But Jacob said to Rebekah his mother, “Behold, my brother Esau is a hairy man, and I am a smooth man. 12 Perhaps my father will feel me, and I shall seem to be mocking him and bring a curse upon myself and not a blessing.” 13 His mother said to him, “Let your curse be on me, my son; only obey my voice, and go, bring them to me.”

14 So he went and took them and brought them to his mother, and his mother prepared delicious food, such as his father loved. 15 Then Rebekah took the best garments of Esau her older son, which were with her in the house, and put them on Jacob her younger son. 16 And the skins of the young goats she put on his hands and on the smooth part of his neck. 17 And she put the delicious food and the bread, which she had prepared, into the hand of her son Jacob.

18 So he went in to his father and said, “My father.” And he said, “Here I am. Who are you, my son?” 19 Jacob said to his father, “I am Esau your firstborn. I have done as you told me; now sit up and eat of my game, that your soul may bless me.” 20 But Isaac said to his son, “How is it that you have found it so quickly, my son?” He answered, “Because the Lord your God granted me success.” 21 Then Isaac said to Jacob, “Please come near, that I may feel you, my son, to know whether you are really my son Esau or not.” 22 So Jacob went near to Isaac his father, who felt him and said, “The voice is Jacob’s voice, but the hands are the hands of Esau.” 23 And he did not recognize him, because his hands were hairy like his brother Esau’s hands. So he blessed him. 24 He said, “Are you really my son Esau?” He answered, “I am.” 25 Then he said, “Bring it near to me, that I may eat of my son’s game and bless you.” So he brought it near to him, and he ate; and he brought him wine, and he drank.

26 Then his father Isaac said to him, “Come near and kiss me, my son.” 27 So he came near and kissed him. And Isaac smelled the smell of his garments and blessed him and said,

“See, the smell of my son

is as the smell of a field that the Lord has blessed!

28 May God give you of the dew of heaven

and of the fatness of the earth

and plenty of grain and wine.

29 Let peoples serve you,

and nations bow down to you.

Be lord over your brothers,

and may your mother’s sons bow down to you.

Cursed be everyone who curses you,

and blessed be everyone who blesses you!”

 

NOTE: Rebekah and Jacob's deceit did not achieve the blessing they sought, but it does reveal how we, through human effort, try to get / deserve God's blessing. The words of a Father are comforting but they lack power because they were done in deceit. Jacob has much to learn and much to repent of before he learns that human effort cannot achieve God's true blessing. The real blessing is so much different. I am tempted to also compare Jacob's prayer as he leaves home, running to Haran with the prayer in Gen 32, but I will save that for later. God does not bless us because of what we do. But he will bless the repentant and those who go to him in prayer. Twenty years later, Jacob will finally be at that point in his life.

 

Genesis 32:9–12 (ESV) — 9 And Jacob said, “O God of my father Abraham and God of my father Isaac, O Lord who said to me, ‘Return to your country and to your kindred, that I may do you good,’ 10 I am not worthy of the least of all the deeds of steadfast love and all the faithfulness that you have shown to your servant, for with only my staff I crossed this Jordan, and now I have become two camps. 11 Please deliver me from the hand of my brother, from the hand of Esau, for I fear him, that he may come and attack me, the mothers with the children. 12 But you said, ‘I will surely do you good, and make your offspring as the sand of the sea, which cannot be numbered for multitude.’ ”

 

Genesis 32:24–30 (ESV) — 24 And Jacob was left alone. And a man wrestled with him until the breaking of the day. 25 When the man saw that he did not prevail against Jacob, he touched his hip socket, and Jacob’s hip was put out of joint as he wrestled with him. 26 Then he said, “Let me go, for the day has broken.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” 27 And he said to him, “What is your name?” And he said, “Jacob.” 28 Then he said, “Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for you have striven with God and with men, and have prevailed.” 29 Then Jacob asked him, “Please tell me your name.” But he said, “Why is it that you ask my name?” And there he blessed him. 30 So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel, saying, “For I have seen God face to face, and yet my life has been delivered.”

 

We need to let go of our stupid human efforts to achieve God's blessing. We need to get beyond works. I am in a church that believes in Grace, but deep down you see some people going through the motions as if it all depended on works. There is no life or transformation in some, just bitterness masked in good while they attend church.

 

PONDER:

  1. Am I changing, becoming more like Jesus every day?
  2. Am I just going through the motions, trying to earn blessing through human effort?

 

PRAYER: Father, I too am guilty of trying to achieve your blessings the wrong way. Forgive me. I am undeserving of all that you have done for me over these decades. Thank you for your kindness and your blessing. Please, bless me. Let me live in your blessing, not the kind I try to make for myself.

Monday, October 20, 2025

QT 10/20/2025 Gen 27:1–10, Man's efforts vs God's efforts

Genesis 27:1–10 (ESV) —

1 When Isaac was old and his eyes were dim so that he could not see, he called Esau his older son and said to him, “My son”; and he answered, “Here I am.” 2 He said, “Behold, I am old; I do not know the day of my death. 3 Now then, take your weapons, your quiver and your bow, and go out to the field and hunt game for me, 4 and prepare for me delicious food, such as I love, and bring it to me so that I may eat, that my soul may bless you before I die.”

5 Now Rebekah was listening when Isaac spoke to his son Esau. So when Esau went to the field to hunt for game and bring it, 6 Rebekah said to her son Jacob, “I heard your father speak to your brother Esau, 7 ‘Bring me game and prepare for me delicious food, that I may eat it and bless you before the Lord before I die.’ 8 Now therefore, my son, obey my voice as I command you. 9 Go to the flock and bring me two good young goats, so that I may prepare from them delicious food for your father, such as he loves. 10 And you shall bring it to your father to eat, so that he may bless you before he dies.”

 

NOTE: Isaac is described as blind or at least with very poor sight. He seems to be spiritually blind as well. God spoke to Rebekkah about the two children and I am sure she told Isaac as well. His actions are very much fleshly, his desire is only for delicious food. Rebekkah is not much better. She knows the prophecy but instead of trusting God for the outcome, she schemes a plan to steal the blessing. Some commentators try to make her the hero because she accepts the blame, but there are prudent actions and there are actions that go beyond prudence, and her actions are scheming to get the outcome she wanted.

 

I know that Isaac already got the birthright by scheming against Esau, but when he returns from Haran, Esau is pretty much running the show, and Isaac is so wealthy, he does not want anything (in one sense, Esau got the physical birthright). Likewise, Isaac runs away and ends up going through a mini-hell (hardly a blessing) in his time with Laban, who is also a deceiver. He is running for his life when he wrestles with God, and there finally receives God's blessing.

 

Ultimately it is God who provides blessings, not men or women, and certainly not through scheming.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I scheme or go beyond prudent steps to achieve the things I want?
  2. Or am I willing to trust God and not let my sticky fingers get involved?

 

PRAYER: Father, thank you for this lesson that I have been learning lately. One would think after almost 50 years of walking with God, I would know how to walk by faith. But I am finding that whenever I dwell on an issue, I am in danger of scheming in my heart and not trusting you.

Friday, October 17, 2025

QT 10/17/2025 Gen 26:23–35, The bitterness of raising children

Genesis 26:23–35 (ESV) —

23 From there he went up to Beersheba. 24 And the Lord appeared to him the same night and said, “I am the God of Abraham your father. Fear not, for I am with you and will bless you and multiply your offspring for my servant Abraham’s sake.” 25 So he built an altar there and called upon the name of the Lord and pitched his tent there. And there Isaac’s servants dug a well.

26 When Abimelech went to him from Gerar with Ahuzzath his adviser and Phicol the commander of his army, 27 Isaac said to them, “Why have you come to me, seeing that you hate me and have sent me away from you?” 28 They said, “We see plainly that the Lord has been with you. So we said, let there be a sworn pact between us, between you and us, and let us make a covenant with you, 29 that you will do us no harm, just as we have not touched you and have done to you nothing but good and have sent you away in peace. You are now the blessed of the Lord.” 30 So he made them a feast, and they ate and drank. 31 In the morning they rose early and exchanged oaths. And Isaac sent them on their way, and they departed from him in peace. 32 That same day Isaac’s servants came and told him about the well that they had dug and said to him, “We have found water.” 33 He called it Shibah; therefore the name of the city is Beersheba to this day.

34 When Esau was forty years old, he took Judith the daughter of Beeri the Hittite to be his wife, and Basemath the daughter of Elon the Hittite, 35 and they made life bitter for Isaac and Rebekah.

 

NOTE: Children have a way of making life difficult. It is not just the birth that brings pain, it is their raising up, and even their adult decisions (as evidenced by Esau's decisions when he was 40). His two wives would have lived at Isaac's parent's home in their own section or in a nearby tent if they did not have fixed homes. Those who think that upbringing is a guarantee of good behavior neither know the bible or have adult children yet. I used to be naïve thinking that a good parent will produce children who make good decisions and a poor parent will produce children who make poor life decisions. My children proved me wrong, although in the end, they both returned to the Lord with a fervor to do right. Additionally, I am the result of poor parenting, and God transformed me. So, all we can is what God calls us to do. I do believe that in the end, the proverb will turn out correct, but we can't blame ourselves nor can we be prideful when our children turn out wonderful. Those whom God called his children never made the right decision (making God a poor father under the previous logic). Children, will grow up to be adults, and they have free will. You can only pray for them, and realize it may be some time before your prayers are answered.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I blame myself for the life decisions of my children?
  2. Do I do the best I can, I will not be perfect, and trust God that he will rescue them in time?

 

PRAYER: Father, it is hard to see children make the choices that they do, despite their upbringing. It can make life very bitter to see a child who completely turns away. Give us mercy and grace to do the right thing, and to trust you, that you love our children even more than we can or do.

Thursday, October 16, 2025

QT 10/16/2025 Gen 26:12–22, Humility, how to do it

Genesis 26:12–22 (ESV) —

12 And Isaac sowed in that land and reaped in the same year a hundredfold. The Lord blessed him, 13 and the man became rich, and gained more and more until he became very wealthy. 14 He had possessions of flocks and herds and many servants, so that the Philistines envied him. 15 (Now the Philistines had stopped and filled with earth all the wells that his father’s servants had dug in the days of Abraham his father.) 16 And Abimelech said to Isaac, “Go away from us, for you are much mightier than we.”

17 So Isaac departed from there and encamped in the Valley of Gerar and settled there. 18 And Isaac dug again the wells of water that had been dug in the days of Abraham his father, which the Philistines had stopped after the death of Abraham. And he gave them the names that his father had given them. 19 But when Isaac’s servants dug in the valley and found there a well of spring water, 20 the herdsmen of Gerar quarreled with Isaac’s herdsmen, saying, “The water is ours.” So he called the name of the well Esek, because they contended with him. 21 Then they dug another well, and they quarreled over that also, so he called its name Sitnah. 22 And he moved from there and dug another well, and they did not quarrel over it. So he called its name Rehoboth, saying, “For now the Lord has made room for us, and we shall be fruitful in the land.”

 

NOTE: I had originally thought that Isaac had not met with much difficulty in his life (especially as compared to his father Abraham), and I now consider myself wrong. This is the third time that he faces a tough situation. His wife was barren for 20 years. He faced famine and tried to protect himself by claiming his wife was his sister. And now, his wealth, forces him to move to avoid conflict, leading to three new wells to appease inhabitants. The Philistines tell him, "… for you are much mightier than we." And yet, he did not use that position of power to force himself and his way upon others. When quarreling arose, he just dug another well. In that sense, he shows a lot of wisdom, especially for a man that seems "quiet" in the biblical story.

 

So what do we learn? Well, there is not much we can do when others "envy us," except the obvious, don't flaunt wealth, success, titles, or connections. You may not be able to stop envy, if God has blessed you, but I believe you are guilty of pride when you flaunt it. Flaunting does not have to be in your face. It can be an off-handed remark or something said in jest. Pride is one of my biggest tripping points. I'm grateful for what God has done in my life, but I need to live, at least toward others, as if those achievements didn't happen. In private I can thank God, but in public I might as well lived my life working but homeless. Well, I can't do that either. I just need to be more careful with my speech.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I regularly boast of wealth, success, titles, or people I know (knew)?
  2. How can I be a servant, quiet and unassuming?

 

PRAYER: Father, I still fail many times in this area of pride. I do feel I am improving and much less likely to add some success or title to my introduction. I'm trying to focus on the now, doing grandparent day care with two adorable children. I want the focus to be on them and not what I used to be. Help me to learn this skill during these years of serving my grandchildren.

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

QT 10/15/2025 Gen 26:1-11, Dealing with fear and pain

Genesis 26:1–11 (ESV) —

1 Now there was a famine in the land, besides the former famine that was in the days of Abraham. And Isaac went to Gerar to Abimelech king of the Philistines. 2 And the Lord appeared to him and said, “Do not go down to Egypt; dwell in the land of which I shall tell you. 3 Sojourn in this land, and I will be with you and will bless you, for to you and to your offspring I will give all these lands, and I will establish the oath that I swore to Abraham your father. 4 I will multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and will give to your offspring all these lands. And in your offspring all the nations of the earth shall be blessed, 5 because Abraham obeyed my voice and kept my charge, my commandments, my statutes, and my laws.”

 

6 So Isaac settled in Gerar. 7 When the men of the place asked him about his wife, he said, “She is my sister,” for he feared to say, “My wife,” thinking, “lest the men of the place should kill me because of Rebekah,” because she was attractive in appearance. 8 When he had been there a long time, Abimelech king of the Philistines looked out of a window and saw Isaac laughing with Rebekah his wife. 9 So Abimelech called Isaac and said, “Behold, she is your wife. How then could you say, ‘She is my sister’?” Isaac said to him, “Because I thought, ‘Lest I die because of her.’ ” 10 Abimelech said, “What is this you have done to us? One of the people might easily have lain with your wife, and you would have brought guilt upon us.” 11 So Abimelech warned all the people, saying, “Whoever touches this man or his wife shall surely be put to death.”

 

NOTE: Isaac is an example of a man following his father's example, except in his father's case, there was a grain of truth in his lie. Abimelech is probably not the same person that dealt with Abraham. The name means "my father is king." I suppose the line of Terah should not marry their pretty cousins (just kidding). The real reason for Isaac's lie is not his father's example, but his own fear. Even his response to the famine is based on fear and he plans to depart the land, but God intervenes and stops him Gerar in the land the Philistines. God will send the people to Egypt, but now is not the time. Abraham, for some reason, was very adamant on not taking his son Isaac out of the land on the wife-hunting expedition. God wants them in the land for another 50 years or so. Abraham had learned that lesson, but Isaac is not so convinced.

 

How does this apply to us? I think normal people (and the patriarchs were normal people) all struggle with fear at various points in their lives. As Christians, we give lip service to "trusting God" but then look for alternative solutions to assuage our fear. I certainly am not recommending the pretend faith I see so many act out (stoicism). I think fear is good as long as we are honest with God about our fears. In general, emotions are good if honestly shared with God. It is when we forget God or put on an act, without even evaluating our emotions that we do a disservice to ourselves and to others. God himself is okay with our fears and complaints, when we bring them to him first.

 

PONDER:

  1. What is my prayer life with God truly like? I am honest or do I just say all the "right" things?
  2. Have I ever been truly honest with God when things did not or are not going well?

 

PRAYER: Father, this is a hard lesson that does not come easy. It seems like great pain is required before we let go of the façade. I pray for those who are faking spirituality through a stoic response to suffering. Help them to grow into a deeper relationship with Jesus.

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

QT 10/14/2025 Gen 25:24–34, We all need transformation

Genesis 25:24–34 (RSV) —

24 When her days to be delivered were fulfilled, behold, there were twins in her womb. 25 The first came forth red, all his body like a hairy mantle; so they called his name Esau. 26 Afterward his brother came forth, and his hand had taken hold of Esau’s heel; so his name was called Jacob. Isaac was sixty years old when she bore them.

27 When the boys grew up, Esau was a skilful hunter, a man of the field, while Jacob was a quiet man, dwelling in tents. 28 Isaac loved Esau, because he ate of his game; but Rebekah loved Jacob.

29 Once when Jacob was boiling pottage, Esau came in from the field, and he was famished. 30 And Esau said to Jacob, “Let me eat some of that red pottage, for I am famished!” (Therefore his name was called Edom.) 31 Jacob said, “First sell me your birthright.” 32 Esau said, “I am about to die; of what use is a birthright to me?” 33 Jacob said, “Swear to me first.” So he swore to him, and sold his birthright to Jacob. 34 Then Jacob gave Esau bread and pottage of lentils, and he ate and drank, and rose and went his way. Thus Esau despised his birthright.

 

NOTE: I really don't find anything commendable in this passage. Some commentators suggest that Jacob regarded the spiritual whereas Esau was only interested in the physical / material things of life. I don't find Jacob's actions honorable even if this is an acceptable practice: a birthright for a bowl a soup is stealing, even if the other person agrees. I think it shows two sinful men, and two poor examples of parents who played favorites. But God can take sinful men and by his grace transform them. While Esau does become an enemy of Jacob for a bit after Jacob flees, they reunite on his return 20 years later. And Jacob is a different person too, chastised by God, and finally will understand what a relationship with God is worth (20-plus years later). We learn in this passage that God can take sinful men and transform them. It is not our upbringing that defines us, but rather our response to God that will define us.

 

PONDER:

  1. Am I willing to let God transform me?
  2. Do I blame my circumstances on factors outside of me?

 

PRAYER: Father, I am not who I am because of my parents (thankfully) but because you got a hold of me after High School and transformed me. I would be a mess (like some of my brothers and sisters) if not for grace and power. Thank you for life, the new life you have given.

Monday, October 13, 2025

QT 10/13/2025 Gen 25:19–23, The danger of helping God

Genesis 25:19–23 (ESV) —

19 These are the generations of Isaac, Abraham’s son: Abraham fathered Isaac, 20 and Isaac was forty years old when he took Rebekah, the daughter of Bethuel the Aramean of Paddan-aram, the sister of Laban the Aramean, to be his wife. 21 And Isaac prayed to the Lord for his wife, because she was barren. And the Lord granted his prayer, and Rebekah his wife conceived. 22 The children struggled together within her, and she said, “If it is thus, why is this happening to me?” So she went to inquire of the Lord. 23 And the Lord said to her,

“Two nations are in your womb,

and two peoples from within you shall be divided;

the one shall be stronger than the other,

the older shall serve the younger.”

 

NOTE: We learn a lot of new information in this passage. First, Isaac was 40 years old when he married. We can assume he was established and he was knowledgeable about his occupation. In the previous chapter we did see him go out into the fields toward evening to meditate. The word, according to rabbinic tradition, can be translated to pray. It can also mean, to meditate, talk, complain, and reminds me of the story "Fiddler on the Roof" where Tevye, the father of daughters, has very conversational and questioning prayers to God. Here we see him pray for Rebekkah his wife over her barrenness.

 

We also see Rebekah seek God trying to understand what was happening in her body. God speaks to her (we don't know how) and tells her that she has twins. God tells her that one shall be stronger than the other (possibly Esau) and that the older (Esau) shall serve the younger (Isaac). I wonder if that is why she schemes to promote Isaac. The issue I have with her later scheming, as well as the favoritism, is that she should have just trusted God to fulfill his will, rather than trying to "help God."

 

We are all a little like Rebekkah, except we don't have a "specific prophesy" from God. But we still pray and the try to help God answer our own prayer, as if we know God's will and as if God needs some help. It is scheming and it can be very subtle. It is one of the lessons I have been learning over the last few years. When I find myself "thinking" or "dwelling" on some future interaction, it is a warning sign to me that I am not trusting God, but scheming. At that moment I pray:

 

1 Peter 5:7 (RSV) — 7 Cast all your anxieties on him, for he cares about you.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I trust God when I pray?
  2. Or do I try to answer my own prayers?
  3. Prudence and scheming are not the same things and we need to distinguish them in our hearts

 

PRAYER: Father, thank you for these days. Thank you for what I am learning. Thank you for answering prayers. Thank you for the peace that surpasses understanding when I let you take care of things.

QT 10/13/2025 Gen 25:19–23, The danger of helping God

Genesis 25:19–23 (ESV) —

19 These are the generations of Isaac, Abraham’s son: Abraham fathered Isaac, 20 and Isaac was forty years old when he took Rebekah, the daughter of Bethuel the Aramean of Paddan-aram, the sister of Laban the Aramean, to be his wife. 21 And Isaac prayed to the Lord for his wife, because she was barren. And the Lord granted his prayer, and Rebekah his wife conceived. 22 The children struggled together within her, and she said, “If it is thus, why is this happening to me?” So she went to inquire of the Lord. 23 And the Lord said to her,

“Two nations are in your womb,

and two peoples from within you shall be divided;

the one shall be stronger than the other,

the older shall serve the younger.”

 

NOTE: We learn a lot of new information in this passage. First, Isaac was 40 years old when he married. We can assume he was established and he was knowledgeable about his occupation. In the previous chapter we did see him go out into the fields toward evening to meditate. The word, according to rabbinic tradition, can be translated to pray. It can also mean, to meditate, talk, complain, and reminds me of the story "Fiddler on the Roof" where Tevye, the father of daughters, has very conversational and questioning prayers to God. Here we see him pray for Rebekkah his wife over her barrenness.

 

We also see Rebekah seek God trying to understand what was happening in her body. God speaks to her (we don't know how) and tells her that she has twins. God tells her that one shall be stronger than the other (possibly Esau) and that the older (Esau) shall serve the younger (Isaac). I wonder if that is why she schemes to promote Isaac. The issue I have with her later scheming, as well as the favoritism, is that she should have just trusted God to fulfill his will, rather than trying to "help God."

 

We are all a little like Rebekkah, except we don't have a "specific prophesy" from God. But we still pray and the try to help God answer our own prayer, as if we know God's will and as if God needs some help. It is scheming and it can be very subtle. It is one of the lessons I have been learning over the last few years. When I find myself "thinking" or "dwelling" on some future interaction, it is a warning sign to me that I am not trusting God, but scheming. At that moment I pray:

 

1 Peter 5:7 (RSV) — 7 Cast all your anxieties on him, for he cares about you.

 

PONDER:

  1. Do I trust God when I pray?
  2. Or do I try to answer my own prayers?
  3. Prudence and scheming are not the same things and we need to distinguish them in our hearts

 

PRAYER: Father, thank you for these days. Thank you for what I am learning. Thank you for answering prayers. Thank you for the peace that surpasses understanding when I let you take care of things.

Friday, October 10, 2025

QT 10/10/2025 Gen 25:12–18, Estranged relationships

Genesis 25:12–18 (ESV) —

12 These are the generations of Ishmael, Abraham’s son, whom Hagar the Egyptian, Sarah’s servant, bore to Abraham. 13 These are the names of the sons of Ishmael, named in the order of their birth: Nebaioth, the firstborn of Ishmael; and Kedar, Adbeel, Mibsam, 14 Mishma, Dumah, Massa, 15 Hadad, Tema, Jetur, Naphish, and Kedemah. 16 These are the sons of Ishmael and these are their names, by their villages and by their encampments, twelve princes according to their tribes. 17 (These are the years of the life of Ishmael: 137 years. He breathed his last and died, and was gathered to his people.) 18 They settled from Havilah to Shur, which is opposite Egypt in the direction of Assyria. He settled over against all his kinsmen.

 

NOTE: The region east of Egypt on the coast of the Red Sea is not the easiest place to live. Other versions interpret the word "opposite" as "being in opposition to." Certainly the prophecy said that he would be against all those around him. It is amazing that despite having the same heir, the groups could be so entirely opposed to each other. But they are not alone. All of Europe has fought against one another for years and for the most part they are related through Japheth and others. Even within families, disputes arise that separate children from one another for years. It is not good, but it is a reality.

 

How does that apply to us? Many of us, including myself, have estranged siblings. It is one thing to just not communicate, but it is another thing when you don't even care to communicate. I am the oldest of seven and I have one brother like that. That particular brother is estranged from everyone in the family. He is the very middle of the middle, #4 of 7. I don't know all the reasons for his separation. I know he has some anger toward me because my mother set me on a pedestal for everyone else to follow. She was wrong to do that. I know my faith has also caused a separation. What is our responsibility? I think we do have a responsibility to reach out and try to reconcile. It is never good to live in separation from another, no matter who started it.

 

PONDER:

  1. What relationships in my life are estranged?
  2. What have I done and what can I still do to heal?

 

PRAYER: Father, I pray that as I reach out to an estranged sibling, that you would provide healing and restoration. Help me to be humble and to have no expectations. I pray for you to work and lead in this.

Thursday, October 9, 2025

QT 10/9/2025 Gen 25:1-11, Funerals and questions of legacy

 

Genesis 25:1–11 (ESV) —

1 Abraham took another wife, whose name was Keturah. 2 She bore him Zimran, Jokshan, Medan, Midian, Ishbak, and Shuah. 3 Jokshan fathered Sheba and Dedan. The sons of Dedan were Asshurim, Letushim, and Leummim. 4 The sons of Midian were Ephah, Epher, Hanoch, Abida, and Eldaah. All these were the children of Keturah. 5 Abraham gave all he had to Isaac. 6 But to the sons of his concubines Abraham gave gifts, and while he was still living he sent them away from his son Isaac, eastward to the east country.

7 These are the days of the years of Abraham’s life, 175 years. 8 Abraham breathed his last and died in a good old age, an old man and full of years, and was gathered to his people. 9 Isaac and Ishmael his sons buried him in the cave of Machpelah, in the field of Ephron the son of Zohar the Hittite, east of Mamre, 10 the field that Abraham purchased from the Hittites. There Abraham was buried, with Sarah his wife. 11 After the death of Abraham, God blessed Isaac his son. And Isaac settled at Beer-lahai-roi.

 

NOTE: It is nice to see Ishmael and Isaac at his funeral. Possibly after Sarah's death, they reunited, we don't know. The two sons were not enemies. Abraham gave all he had to Isaac, although he gave gifts to other children born late in life to Keturah. Isaac was a rich man with a beautiful wife.

 

The scriptures say that Abraham died in a good old age, an old man and full of years, 175 to be exact. He experienced a lot of ups and downs in life. He experienced trials, fears, and great successes. He had spiritual failures and spiritual victories, the latter occurring much more often after the miracle birth of his son Isaac. He died rich materially and rich spiritually.

 

Attending a funeral is a good time for self-evaluation. Where is my life going? What is my legacy? What will I be remembered for? And maybe the question we don't ask but should, what do I want to be remembered as and for?

 

PONDER:

  1. What is my legacy now?
  2. What do I want it to be?

 

PRAYER: Father, I want my children to believe I was a good father who loved you foremost. I want to be someone they could always talk to about anything. I want to be someone whose advice they cherished. I want them to say, I know my Dad loved me as he loved you, God.