Ps
73:21-26 (ESV) When my soul was embittered,
when I
was pricked in heart,
22 I
was brutish and ignorant;
I was
like a beast toward you.
23
Nevertheless, I am continually with you;
you
hold my right hand.
24 You
guide me with your counsel,
and
afterward you will receive me to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And
there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God
is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
NOTE: This is so
true -- when we are in those dark periods, where emotions control our thoughts,
where pricks dig painfully at our souls, we act like fools toward God,
forgetting who God is and whom we serve. And yet, our response to God does not
change his love for us. Yes, it can change his actions and even our rewards,
but he does not love us any less. Because, for God, love is a commitment. It
never changes. It gives us hope and frees us from fear. Perfect love casts out
fear. We can never not be loved -- how amazing! But we can trigger his
discipline (because he loves us so much). "It is fearful thing to fall
into the hands of the living God (Heb 10:31)." That verse was written to
believers who were falling away. God is like a parent, who will do whatever it
takes to bring us back to him. A good parent knows that discipline, while
painful, is for our best. And so God acts in love for his children, but he
never ever stops loving us. No matter how ugly we are to him. Thank you Lord
for you immeasurable grace and kindness toward me.