Phil
1:6 (NIV) . . . being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
NOTE: It is so hard
to see my present circumstances as a "good work." They are so
painful, so frightening, so tiring. Like Job, I ask the question; is it worth
it? I know in my heart of hearts it is. I know I will look back on the days
with a tear and a smile, but that doesn't change today. Please Lord, rescue my
family; deliver us from the pain and suffering. In Jesus' name, Amen.
((TODAY, 22 Jul
2012: I don't remember what happened. A number of procedures failed during the
first two years. Things that we put our hopes in -- doctors and medical science
-- failed us. I believe we were trusting God
to work through these
instruments, but for whatever reason our hopes were continually dashed.
I was right in one
respect -- as I re-read these journal notes, there are tears and a smile, but
mostly tears. Tears because they are so hard to relive even in text. A smile,
because, somehow we emerged out of it all. The marriage survived, the children grew
up, and the pain subsided. And, God has blessed us in many ways. There are
still struggles, and most revolve around the fears for our children despite the
fact that they are now adults. And actually we added one more to the family
when Sarah married. Tomorrow, Luke starts a new job in his chosen career
field--he will be a security guard in a homeless shelter.))
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